BRYLEE'S 1!!!

So, I know that I'm a little late in posting, but I cannot believe how fast this month has flown by.

I have been having such a hard time with the realization that Brylee is now 1!!! I mean how can she be 1!!! I just had her, I still have all the stretch marks to prove it!!! I just want to cry.... Oh wait. I've done that!!!

I remember the night that I found out that I was pregnant with her and how I just couldn't wrap my head around it. I thought that Bryan and I would have to go through soo much to more to get pregnant. I remember all the tears and the let down of every Negative pregnancy test. I remember beating myself up inside, telling myself that that maybe God didn't want me to be a mother because I wasn't good enough!

Then there I was pregnant, I was so excited, I couldn't believe that I was going to be a mommy! While being pregnant I was so worried that I would do something wrong, and hurt her in some way. I wouldn't let Ronin just on me, I watched everything that I ate. I remember our first ultrasound, I was so excited to see her. But yet I was afraid that they would tell us that we weren't pregnant or that there was something wrong with the baby. There she was on the screen the cutest little gummy bear I have ever seen. She was moving her numbs and head back and forth almost like she was saying Hi! Her heart beat was so strong and I to LOVE the sound of it!!! I remember Bryan and I were counting down the day when we would finally find out what she was (deep down knew that she was a girl) but when the tech told us that she was a GIRL I was even more excited!!! I ran out before going to work and bought her first on many outfits!

All the fun began, painting her nursery, it was soo fun BUT so much work!!! (Never do stripes!) Worrying over thing we needed to buy to be ready for her, all the cute little clothes and shoes... the baby showers!

The guessing game of what she would look like, would she have Bryan's darker skin, my nose, my blue/green eyes or Bryan's brown ones. Would she have tons of hair or none at all...

The worry when I started into labor at 35 weeks and then the pain of being in Labor for the next 4 weeks (AHHH!). I was so excited when the doctor said that she would take her a week early but yet I was secretly scared to death of the big day... I was worried if she would be okay!

JANUARY 6, 2009!!! The day we all were waiting for... our little Brylee Anne came into this world a whopping 8 lbs. 12 oz. and 20 1/2 inches!!! She was the prettiest thing that I ever laid eyes on!!! I remember laying there holding her for the first time and thinking You where worth all of it!!! I couldn't believe that with in the first second of holding her I was absolutely in Love with her! I just couldn't believe how beautiful she was and that Bryan and I made her. Also know I was responsible for her!

The day that we brought her home from the Hospital I was soo scared. Yet I was so excited to show her, her home, her nursery and her doggies. That first day home with her was the Best!!! I knew that my life would never be the same, and it was alright with me! She has made and still does make my world so much worth it!

I the fun mile stones that she has went through, cooing, smiling, laughing, playing with her rattle, sitting up, baby food for the first time, getting her ears parsed, and crawling!!!

I was over joyed! I was going through the academy and feeling like was neglecting her, because I didn't spend a lot of time at home. I felt like one of the worst mommies! Then on one of my days off, I was changing her and went to the bathroom to wash my hand and I she fallowed me there... I was so excited!!! I knew that she loved me, and that things where OK!

There has been so many things that I have been blessed to experience with her! She is my Life!!! I'm so blessed to have her, to be her mommy. I never knew what unconditional love was until they laid her in my arms for the first time!

She is getting so Big, I can't stand it! It went by too fast!!! I wish that I could just have one more day when she was so small, and have her cuddle up to my neck!

I Love you Brylee, Happy Birthday!!!

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Here are a few pictures of our sweet baby girl though the year....